Just another day in paradise

Well not much has changes except my mood. I seem to be a little more sure of why I am here in Canada. Some days just seem to get me down. I love where I am but at the same time I miss the luxuries of home. I seem to be on the edge of the world not that I can't get what I need but what I want seems to be the problem. Some may see it as being spoiled.

Let me explain!!!

I came from the good ole USA. Not a big city but not to far from one on the biggest cities in the world. Anything I wanted I could get (pending how much money I had in my pocket.) I could go out to dinner each night of the week and never have the same kind of meal. ie: Mexican, mediteranian, chinese, Italian, turkish, greek, tex-mex, indian, and whatever else you heart desired. Here I cannot even get decent Chinese. They have chinese food but it pales in comparion to what I am used to Italian food well that is virtually none existant. Being Itailan doesn't help either. Guess I am spoiled. Can I make this new home happy for myself? Can I let go of the life I lived?

I have more questions for myself than for anyone else. Let me explain!

I moved to Canada to find happiness with a wonderful man. I uprooted my whole life. Left my family, friends and career. I do not regret this decision. I am unsure where I go from here. What do I expect of myself & my partner. My biggest desire is to become a mother. With divine intervention that may someday occur. I am living the life of leisure on limited funds. (not what I am used to)

So what's next where do I go from here?