42 the eternal answer

The questions we can never find the answer for unless we dig deep inside ourselves. Where do u find the clarity, When you feel unworthy? When the one thing you want seems elusive. Why can I not just be happy? I have a man who loves me. Just poor at showing it. My head knows it, my heart however is still searching. I'm so lost. Do I stay? Do I go? Did I make the biggest mistake of my life? Please take this from me. Provide me with the answer. 42 doesn't seem to be working for me. I cannot deal with this anymore.