If I was a color

Why do I feel as though I am not good enough. Why does no one see that I am good enough. Blue is not the best color to be but I am not sure what other color best suits me. I have never been so rejected in my life. It has not hurt this much in so long. I am not quite sure how to handle the pain. I know what not to do despite the scenario that keep whirling around in my mind. Is it wrong to just wish to go to sleep and not awaken.