Am I going crazy

I have now done things so out of character for myself and some so in character. Because of my lack of making new friends, I have take to the internet for solace. There are both pro's and con's to that. Remaining objective to the people you meet. Not getting attached to a degree that would jeopardize a newly formed union but still finding some sort of personal happiness. Well I have stumbled. I have taken quite a liking to someone. More than one should.

I have also gone through my 1st hurt from the outside family forces that I'm bound too by marriage. It goes to show that when life comes down to it the only person you can ever really count on is yourself.

The problem here in lies that I gave up everything to be here. Financially I'm penniless. I'm in a country that is not yet willing to embrace me because of government bureaucracy. Paper work, money, my spirit , my zest for life they have taken everything and I'm a slave here feeling very alone. The bright spot is this new companion. Am I projecting my feeling to this bright spot. Looking for a savior?